I had a simple task. Find alternate TV programming for the cable/satellite streaming services we’ve been using over the years. Another simple task was to use the Amazon Fire Stick seven months ago that my son convinced me I needed to watch movies like “Hamilton”
The simplest task can sometimes turn out to be a bear. Well I could do that right now. Do you own a computer(s)? I tried installing new software over the expired previous version. I failed to document the dozens of dead end screens I’ve pulled up. I’ve caught glimpses of what might have worked, but failed to document those too.
Not Just Me
This is me – I spend an hour or more a day for things I’ve had in my hand and don’t remember where I laid them. There are stories after stories of self-created frustrations I could bore you with. And my favorite (not) examples are men who brag to my wife about how they can do this or that and will come and show me – and never show.
The number one reason for my frustrations is my laziness. Part of the problem I’ve generated. The other part of my problem comes from cardiologists (yes that is plural). Until I have a heart operation I’m limited in physical stamina.
I’ve done a lot of projects around the house that required physical staimina – and that was when I had a job. Now that I’m retired I feel like nothing is urgent. My wife doesn’t agree.
It’s also easier to dismiss my many unfinished tasks when I have more important things to do. Since I retired I volunteered at a pro-life pregnancy center and later became an elder in my church. I also hosted a small group in my home and taught children’s Sunday School.
It was then that my health issues cropped up. So the first thing I stopped doing was being an Elder. I now head a prayer ministry which is not functioning due to COVID. COVID is also the reason for delaying my heart surgery. Fortunately I was active enough before my heart problems that my heart surgery is not urgent.
One of my crucial problems is focus. Writing for this blog helps me some. I pray that it helps others also. But the problem is that I’m writing more than I pray. So I’m not in tune with the person, God, that will direct my focus.
And I know that moreso, time in prayer will add to the efficacy of my blog. Only the Holy Spirit will know completely what I should be writing. And there are many lost souls and sick people that need my prayers – besides a sick country.
Scripture is where I look to when I don’t have the answers.
(Galatians 6:9-10 WEB) 9And let us not be weary in well-doing: for in due season we shall reap, if we faint not. 10As we have therefore opportunity, let us do good to all [men], especially to them who are of the household of faith.
(Ecclesiastes 4:6 NASB) One hand full of rest is better than two fists full of labor and striving after wind.
The first not so secret is having well-doing in mind. And the second not so secret is stepping away instead of continuing to frustrate myself. And the third lesson in these scriptures is to do good to all men and women – including my wife (oh wait – that’s first on my list of people to serve).
So once again I’ve found a lesson aimed to me.
Heraclitus, a Greek philosopher, is quoted as saying “change is the only constant in life.”
I’m not going to resolve my problem with impatience until I accept frustration. And I’m not going to resolve my problem with impatience if I always expect timely (my time frame – not necessarily God’s) solutions.